Impostor Syndrome and the Positive Whisper (10-30-24)

This week is about impostor syndrome and listening to positive whispers. I’ve been reflecting quite a bit about everything going on at work, all the challenges, and my attempts to lead through those things. All of that reflecting ultimately crystalized into something. I was in a meeting yesterday, there was great energy, and it’s like I heard a little positive whisper that said, “You’re doing pretty good at this stuff.”

Normally, Impostor Syndrome would catch a whiff of this positive whisper and rush to crush it. However, this time, I didn’t give Impostor Syndrome the chance to snuff out that flame. This time, I sat with the positive whisper for a bit. I shielded the whisper from being snuffed out, and I slowed down to stay with the whisper before rushing off. It was kind of like stepping outside of my body for a second, as the positive whisper kept talking to me, “Andrew, you may not be perfect, but you’re a lot of the things you appreciate from your favorite leaders. You’re challenging the status quo, casting a vision, navigating ambiguity, engaging people, and making trade-offs. You’re doing pretty good at this stuff. Make sure you see that.”

Let’s make some connections. Have you ever had Impostor Syndrome crush your momentum and belief in yourself? It happens to me all the time. I’ll start to have a positive thought like, “I’m doing well,” and then Impostor Syndrome will say, “But you messed up all of these things. Look at that chain of mistakes. They are going to find out you aren’t the real deal.” It wasn’t until I heard the positive whisper that I realized how incredibly deafening and all-consuming Impostor Syndrome can be. Have you ever realized this? We are so quick to allow the Impostor Syndrome to be loud and tear us down. At the same time, we are so slow to protect and encourage the fragile positive whisper. It doesn’t have to be this way. If we are willing to sit with the positive whisper, often that’s enough for it to grow and get through.

The challenge: Will you hear the positive whisper? How can you sit with and encourage the positive whisper?

Bonus: If you don’t hear the positive whisper right now allow me to be that, “You’re an awesome human. You’re doing a nice job of hanging in there. You’re pretty good at this life stuff.”

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Making Mistakes vs Being an Impostor (10-9-24)

Over the past few weeks, a few of you made comments about impostor syndrome, so I wanted to explore that for a series. This entry is about making mistakes, feeling like an impostor, and evidence. Let’s start with a definition. Impostor (noun)- one that assumes false identity or title for the purpose of deception (Impostor Definition & Meaning – Merriam-Webster).

As many of you know, I do obstacle course races. I have only had 1 race where I completed every obstacle flawlessly. Usually, I fail anywhere between 10-30% of the obstacles. Here is what is interesting. When I fail an obstacle I tell myself, “I made a mistake” and move on. The thought that I might be an impostor who doesn’t belong on the course NEVER crosses my mind. Why is that? It’s because when I step back and take a look at the evidence, I see that it refutes the impostor claim. I have a wall full of medals that demonstrates I am an obstacle course racer. The evidence reinforces who I am and what I do.

What does this have to do with anything? When most people talk to me about impostor syndrome, they say something like, “I’m afraid that if I make a mistake they will find out I don’t belong here. If I make a mistake, they will see I’m an impostor.” Making a mistake doesn’t automatically make you an impostor. Making a mistake doesn’t mean you’ve assumed a false identity or are trying to be something you’re not.

Instead of assuming you’re an imposter, I’d ask you to step back and look at the evidence. If you zoom out, chances are that there is a mound of evidence that suggests you are more than competent and capable. If you zoom out, chances are there is a mound of evidence that suggests you are worthy of being in that room. If you make a mistake, you aren’t an impostor, you’re a human who makes mistakes sometimes. There is a big difference between those two things.

The challenge: Will you distinguish between being an impostor and being a human who makes mistakes? Will you remember to step back and look at the evidence?

Bonus thoughts- I used the obstacle course racing example, but I could have used different ones. I’m a slam poet who has bombed on stage, AND I’ve won competitions and been to nationals. The bad poems don’t make me an impostor. I’m a blogger that has written some stuff that isn’t that great, AND I’ve written some amazing blogs that have brought people to tears and made a difference. The weak entries don’t make me an impostor. I’ve made all kinds of mistakes at work, AND I’ve also won awards and been recognized for doing incredible things. The mistakes don’t make me an impostor, they just reinforce that I’m human.

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Remembering the World is Bigger than Us (10-19-22)

Last week was about keeping our eyes open for side missions. This week is about remembering that the world is bigger than us.

This adventure was the first time my kids had ever been to another country. They enjoyed going somewhere different, where they had the opportunity to experience new lands, new people, and new things. We were a few days into the adventure and Cam and I were having a special dinner with just the two of us. We were talking and he said something along the lines of, “I really like this trip. It reminds me that the world is soooooooo much bigger than Indiana.” Well said, Cam. Well said, indeed.

What does this have to do with anything? . If I’m being honest with myself, before I went on this adventure I think I was so trapped in the fire drills and day to day grind that I lost perspective. My world became so small, because I allowed it to shrink down to the size of those routines. Does this ever happen to you? Being on this trip with my family caused me to step back and realize how my own personal world is so small, and how there is so much more to explore and appreciate out there.

The challenge: How can we remember that the world is so much bigger than just our day to day?

I stand in solidarity against injustice and in support of humanity.

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry