Impostor Syndrome and the Positive Whisper (10-30-24)

This week is about impostor syndrome and listening to positive whispers. I’ve been reflecting quite a bit about everything going on at work, all the challenges, and my attempts to lead through those things.  All of that reflecting ultimately crystalized into something.  I was in a meeting yesterday, there was great energy, and it’s like I heard a little positive whisper that said, “You’re doing pretty good at this stuff.” 

Normally, Impostor Syndrome would catch a whiff of this positive whisper and rush to crush it.  However, this time, I didn’t give Impostor Syndrome the chance to snuff out that flame.  This time, I sat with the positive whisper for a bit.  I shielded the whisper from being snuffed out, and I slowed down to stay with the whisper before rushing off.  It was kind of like stepping outside of my body for a second, as the positive whisper kept talking to me, “Andrew, you may not be perfect, but you’re a lot of the things you appreciate from your favorite leaders.  You’re challenging the status quo, casting a vision, navigating ambiguity, engaging people, and making trade-offs.  You’re doing pretty good at this stuff.  Make sure you see that.”

Let’s make some connections.  Have you ever had Impostor Syndrome crush your momentum and belief in yourself?  It happens to me all the time.  I’ll start to have a positive thought like, “I’m doing well,” and then Impostor Syndrome will say, “But you messed up all of these things.  Look at that chain of mistakes.  They are going to find out you aren’t the real deal.”  It wasn’t until I heard the positive whisper that I realized how incredibly deafening and all-consuming Impostor Syndrome can be.  Have you ever realized this?  We are so quick to allow the Impostor Syndrome to be loud and tear us down.  At the same time, we are so slow to protect and encourage the fragile positive whisper.  It doesn’t have to be this way.  If we are willing to sit with the positive whisper, often that’s enough for it to grow and get through.

The challenge: Will you hear the positive whisper?  How can you sit with and encourage the positive whisper?

Bonus: If you don’t hear the positive whisper right now allow me to be that, “You’re an awesome human.  You’re doing a nice job of hanging in there.  You’re pretty good at this life stuff.”

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Bonus- Impostor Syndrome and Distorting How You View Yourself (10-23-24)

I have a bonus follow-up to today’s blog.  A friend and colleague of mine responded to my blog this morning and I had to share because it hit me hard and made things so clear.  It’s another take on impostor syndrome distorting the way you view yourself.

From my friend- What’s funny is even in your thoughts here, you are selling yourself short – “They’ve worked with all kinds of amazing companies” “They have done work with heads of huge companies”. That’s you, too. Lilly is top ten biggest company in the world by market cap (ahead of tesla, Walmart, visa etc.) and you have made a big name for yourself here. You have the accolades and connections in one of the premier companies in the world – and yet imposter syndrome would tell you it doesn’t “count” for you. Personally, it sucks because it makes me discredit all my accomplishments “(right place at the right time, got lucky, was propelled by better people)”. It’s like everyone else earned their accomplishments except I just happened to stumble upon mine, so they don’t really count.

Deep thoughts, right?  My friend makes a great point.  It’s so weird that I would sell myself so short.  Do you ever do the same?  It’s like I see my reflection through a distorted funhouse mirror.  Seriously, if I met someone and they said, “I’m responsible for reimagining market research.  I’m the business lead for our market research AI efforts, and my company is one of the top 10 most valued in the world,” I’d be like, “Dang! That’s impressive!  How do I get on their level?” That impressive person IS ME.  Even though that person is me, I don’t view myself in that way, because impostor syndrome wants me to shrink myself.  Impostor syndrome messes with my reflection.  Sometimes, we need to step back to look through a more objective lens to see a true reflection.

The challenge- Will you step back and look at the big picture when impostor syndrome tries to make you feel small?

Bonus- A few “step back and see your awesomeness” moments that come to mind in case you are feeling a bit small

  • You are not just a parent.  You are a builder of incredibly fierce, independent, and strong adults.  You are the hug that held them when they cried that they will never forget.  You are a crafter of curriculums, teaching lessons that last and unlocking levels of curiosity kids never knew they had. (#mywife)
  • You aren’t just a market researcher.  You are an investigative reporter scouting sources, finding truth, and enabling people to make HUGE decisions that set the trajectory of million dollar brands  (Here’s a poem about being a researcher  Click HERE.
  • You aren’t just a college professor.  You are a sage leaving lasting wisdom with students (#ProfessorSkinner). 
  • You’re not just a sales professional.  You are someone who manages a business and generates millions of dollars in revenue.
  • You aren’t just a middle manager.  You are a leader of the team leaving a lasting legacy on the people in your care.

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Impostor Syndrome and Your Unique Genius (10-23-24)

Last week was about impostor syndrome and the unrealistic expectations we set for ourselves.  This week is about impostor syndrome and embracing your own unique genius.

I’m working with an amazing group of individuals right now.  These people are absolutely brilliant in their field.  They’ve worked with all kinds of amazing companies and people.  If I’m being 100% honest, I often feel self-conscious and dumb around them.  It’s nothing they’ve done.  Impostor Syndrome whispers, “Did you hear all their accolades?  They have done work with heads of huge companies.  You’re kind of chump change.  You’re not smart like them.  You’re not in their league.” 

Over time, something interesting started happening.  This group of amazing people started telling me how much they value my input.  At first, I was confused by this.  I’m not in their league, so how am I valuable?  I then begin to appreciate that I have context, insight, and skillsets they might not have.  I’m not smart in THEIR way.  I’m smart in MY OWN WAY.  It just so happens that my unique genius has a synergistic effect that enables them to get even more out of their strengths. 

Let’s make some connection.  Have you ever been in a group of brilliant people and felt dumb or out of place?  Has Impostor Syndrome ever told you that you don’t belong, and that you aren’t in their league?  Per my story above, you know I’ve been there.  My most important learning is I didn’t need to be smart or talented like them.  I just needed to be smart and talented like me.  We each have our own UNIQUE genius.  We each have something special about us that inherently makes us valuable and worthy.  Often, it’s the ability to combine the unique geniuses of multiple people that truly creates something magical.

The challenge: Will you embrace your own unique genius to combat impostor syndrome?

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Impostor Syndrome and Unrealistic Expectations (10-16-24)

Last week was about being an impostor vs making mistakes.  This week is about impostor syndrome and unrealistic expectations we set for ourselves.

In my current role, I’m focused on leading innovation for market research.  This includes spearheading AI efforts.  As I lead those efforts, Impostor Syndrome whispers to me constantly.  It says things like, “Andrew, you aren’t fit for this role.  You don’t know anything.  You can’t name all the different AI technologies out there.  You don’t understand how each AI engine tokenizes data differently.  You can’t even vectorize a database.  If you can’t do those things, how can you lead any AI efforts?”  Not gonna lie.  Those whispers are strong and make me doubt myself and question my value in a big way. 

Here’s the thing.  If I zoom out and look at the evidence, no one is expecting me to be able to do those things.  Those are unrealistic expectations I’m putting on myself.  What do they expect of me?  They expect me to be able to understand the needs of the business and our market research community.  They expect me to be able to translate those needs into a vision that reshapes our futures.  They expect me to connect with internal teammates and external partners to find the AI experts who know how to vectorize databases and can build AI solutions.  Sorting through complexity to find needs, translating needs into a vision, partnering with people, and letting my imagination run wild are all things that are MY JAM!  I can do those things well, and while I’m not anywhere close to done I’m proud of what I’ve helped make happen in the AI space with the incredible teams I work with.

Let’s connect some dots.  Does my story sound familiar to you?  Have you ever felt listened to the whispers of Impostor Syndrome?  Have you ever been tricked into listening to unrealistic expectations?  If so, welcome to the club 😉  This happens to me way more than I’d like.

The solution is always taking a step back to look at the evidence.  Are those expectations that Impostor Syndrome keeps whispering to you real?  Probably not.  Is anyone else holding you to those same expectations?  Probably not.  If those are false expectations, what are the real expectations?  How do your experiences and skillsets stack up to those?  I bet you are so much more competent and better than you initially believed.

The challenge: Will you be willing to challenge the expectations Impostor Syndrome whispers to you?

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Making Mistakes vs Being an Impostor (10-9-24)

Over the past few weeks, a few of you made comments about impostor syndrome, so I wanted to explore that for a series.  This entry is about making mistakes, feeling like an impostor, and evidence.  Let’s start with a definition.  Impostor (noun)- one that assumes false identity or title for the purpose of deception (Impostor Definition & Meaning – Merriam-Webster). 

As many of you know, I do obstacle course races.  I have only had 1 race where I completed every obstacle flawlessly.  Usually, I fail anywhere between 10-30% of the obstacles.  Here is what is interesting.  When I fail an obstacle I tell myself, “I made a mistake” and move on.  The thought that I might be an impostor who doesn’t belong on the course NEVER crosses my mind.  Why is that?  It’s because when I step back and take a look at the evidence, I see that it refutes the impostor claim.  I have a wall full of medals that demonstrates I am an obstacle course racer.  The evidence reinforces who I am and what I do.

What does this have to do with anything?  When most people talk to me about impostor syndrome, they say something like, “I’m afraid that if I make a mistake they will find out I don’t belong here.  If I make a mistake, they will see I’m an impostor.”  Making a mistake doesn’t automatically make you an impostor.  Making a mistake doesn’t mean you’ve assumed a false identity or are trying to be something you’re not. 

Instead of assuming you’re an imposter, I’d ask you to step back and look at the evidence.  If you zoom out, chances are that there is a mound of evidence that suggests you are more than competent and capable.  If you zoom out, chances are there is a mound of evidence that suggests you are worthy of being in that room.  If you make a mistake, you aren’t an impostor, you’re a human who makes mistakes sometimes.  There is a big difference between those two things.

The challenge: Will you distinguish between being an impostor and being a human who makes mistakes?  Will you remember to step back and look at the evidence?

Bonus thoughts- I used the obstacle course racing example, but I could have used different ones.  I’m a slam poet who has bombed on stage, AND I’ve won competitions and been to nationals.  The bad poems don’t make me an impostor.  I’m a blogger that has written some stuff that isn’t that great, AND I’ve written some amazing blogs that have brought people to tears and made a difference.  The weak entries don’t make me an impostor.  I’ve made all kinds of mistakes at work, AND I’ve also won awards and been recognized for doing incredible things.  The mistakes don’t make me an impostor, they just reinforce that I’m human. 

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Recharging and Mental Health (10-2-24)

Last week I finished the series on lessons I’ve learned from therapy.  This week I want to touch on one more mental health lesson, before moving to new topics.  Today, I want to touch on the importance of recharging for our mental health.

Let me start by saying that everyone is okay.  Here’s the story.  On Friday, I drove a few hours away for an obstacle course race on Saturday.  On Saturday morning around 1am, I received a text that a family member was in the hospital.  I packed up and drove the 3.5 hours home to see what was going on.  It was a long day of waiting and little sleep.  Eventually, I felt good about everything and went home.

When I got home I sent a couple of emails to folks letting them know what was going on and that I wouldn’t be at work on Monday.  Then, the guilt started to set in.  On Saturday night and Sunday morning this little voice started whispering, “You’re really behind at work.  You’re going to be even more behind, because you aren’t working on Monday.  You should start doing work right now.  You’re not doing anything else right now.  You’re just staying at the house.  You’re just sitting there.  You could be doing work to catch up.”  Have you ever had something like this happen to you?  Have you ever heard guilt whisper to you like this?

For a moment, I almost gave into that voice.  Then, I paused for a second and I assessed how I was feeling.  I was sleep deprived, physically tired, and emotionally exhausted.  Working is not what I needed.  I wasn’t sitting around doing “nothing”.  I was recharging.  I was catching my breath.  I was taking care of myself.  I was being present with my family.  After embracing these things, I let go of the urge to work.

What does this have to do with anything?  I don’t know about you, but it’s easy to get lost in the hustle and grind.  It’s easy to subscribe to this idea that we should be doing something every moment of every day to better ourselves and deliver for the business.  This is the same mentality that leads to burnout.  We don’t always need to be running ourselves into the ground.  We need to challenge that voice of guilt.  We need to embrace that sometimes we need to do “nothing”.  Sometimes, we need to slow down, reconnect, and recharge for our own sake and for the sake of others.

The challenge- Will you allows yourself to recharge when you need to?

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Therapy and Investing Effort (9-25-24)

This will be my last in the series about lessons I’ve learned from therapy.  We started with asking for help, analyzed root causes, and explored thought traps and radical acceptance.  We will end by reflecting on therapy and investing effort.

As I mentioned in the first blog, I leveraged our Lyra services for therapy.  Going through this experience consisted of a few different things like live sessions, assessments, articles to read, and online videos to watch.  We were a few weeks in, and I was telling my therapist that I appreciated the different resources.  She shared that she was concerned she was assigning me too much, because she recognized that I was busy in life.  I thanked her for her consideration and told her that she was not overburdening me.  I explained that I wanted the materials, because I knew how important it was to invest in my mental health.  I came to her, because life was kicking my butt, so my number one goal was to work through that.  As a result, I was committed to investing in my mental health, and I made the necessary trade-offs to do this.

How does this connect to anything?  So much of life is about putting in effort to grow.  The challenge is that there are so many domains in life we could invest int.  We can put in effort for our physical health, mental health, relationships, parenting, careers, etc.  This can be overwhelming, especially if we allow ourselves to fall in the trap of thinking that we need to master and max out all of those domains.  Instead, we need embrace that everything can’t get equal focus all the time, AND THAT’S OKAY.  For me, in that period of my life, I over indexed on my mental health, because I needed that.  I did the extra work in that space and deprioritized other things.  As my life moves from season to season, I know I’ll continue to evolve where I put the work in and how I invest my effort. 

The challenge: Where will you invest your effort?

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Therapy and Radical Acceptance (9-18-24)

Last week was about therapy and thought traps.  This week we are diving into the powerful idea of radical acceptance.  I consider this to be my favorite therapy tool and mindset shift.  This email is a bit longer, because I wanted to dig a little deeper into the concepts and I’m throwing in a couple examples.

During one of my therapy sessions I was talking about my problems and saying things like, “I keep running into X, and it sucks.  It SHOULD be going like this.  And I’m facing Y situation.  It SHOULD NOT be going like that.  It SHOULD be happening like this.”  Have you ever been overwhelmed by the thought of how things should be vs how they are?  After listening to me, my therapist hit me hard like a punch straight to the gut with an insight that cut to the core of my problem.  She said something along the lines of, “You are making yourself suffer twice.  You’re suffering the first time because the challenge you are facing is hard.  That’s true.  It is hard.  You are making yourself suffer a second time, because you are refusing to accept reality for what it is.  Instead of embracing reality you keep saying this SHOULD or SHOULD NOT be happening.  You are creating unrealistic expectations, and that’s causing you even more pain because they can’t be fulfilled.” 

I sat there stunned for a moment, and then my therapist talked to me about the concept of radical acceptance.  Radical acceptance is focused on embracing what IS instead of what should be.  The main idea is learning how to OBJECTIVELY look at a situation to see the real facts, challenges, and constraints.  There is no judgment about whether it’s good or bad.  It’s merely looking at the situation and saying, “This is reality.  This is the challenge I need to contend with.”  I can’t express how important of a mindset shift this was for me.  Once I learned how to practice radical acceptance, I could step back from a situation and be objective.  Once I learned how to embrace radical acceptance, the emotions of a situation no longer had such a hold on me.  Being objective and creating distance helped me analyze what was occurring, so I could see potential solutions and get unstuck. 

What does this have to do with anything?  Whether it’s your personal life or work, it’s easy to get swept up in what SHOULD happen, and to become so focused on this that you end up suffering twice when reality doesn’t meet your expectations.  Instead, we need to practice radical acceptance, embrace reality, and then problem solve.  Below are a couple of real examples from my recent life.  Do either of these sound familiar?

Too much work example– I started by telling myself this, “We have too much work to do.  We SHOULD have more headcount or more resources.  This is crap!  I guess I’ll just have to work zillions of hours.”  Does this ring any bells?  Then I practiced radical acceptance with the team and the conversation turned into this, “The reality of the situation is that we have too much work to do.  We don’t have the resources or people to do it all, and there are no indications that we are going to get more people or resources anytime soon.  The only way we can get it all done is if we work ourselves to death.  I don’t want that for any of us.  Now let’s problem solve.  It won’t be easy, but we need to make choices.  What do we value?  What can we prioritize?  Okay, we value X, so we are going to focus all our efforts on Y and Z and leave everything else alone.  I’ll start emailing folks to tell them we won’t help with their request right now, and/or we will offer them ______ because we are already doing that so they can try that if they want to but we won’t be doing anything special for them.”  The situation didn’t necessarily get easier, but practicing radical acceptance enabled me to problem solve without suffering twice.  Also, it might sound weird to say but practicing radical acceptance also has enabled me to be more zen, even in the midst of a lot of chaos.

Health and fitness example– I have what will likely be my last obstacle course race of the year in about 1.5 weeks.  For the past couple of weeks I’ve been beating myself up.  I’ve been saying things like, “I SHOULD have lifted more.  I SHOULD have done more dead hangs.  I SHOULD have ran more.  I SHOULD have been better with all aspects of my health.  I can’t believe I didn’t do those things.  I suck.  I SHOULD NOT feel like I’m more or less starting over.”  Have you ever beat yourself up over your health and fitness goals?  The reality of the situation is that I’m not happy about this, but it is the situation I’m in.  Due to a wide variety of reasons, I did not train as much as I would have liked, and there is NOTHING I can do to change that.  Rehashing it over and over again does not help.  Practicing radical acceptance led me to realize that I have a limited number of days left to prepare for the race.  I have the opportunity to make the most of those.  Most importantly, the reality is that even if I didn’t train as much as I would have liked, I can still have a lot of fun at the race.  I’m no longer beating myself up, and I feel so much better.

The challenge: How will you practice radical acceptance to embrace reality for what it is?

Resources- Here are a few videos I watched about radical acceptance.

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Therapy and Thinking Traps (9-11-24)

The previous entry was about therapy and symptoms vs root causes.  This week is about thinking traps (also called cognitive distortions).

Last week I shared that the root cause of my problems is that I got trapped in a mindset of, “This sucks.  I’m stuck and powerless.”  As I explored this belief with my therapist, she introduced me to the idea of thinking traps, which are patterns of negative thinking that distort our perception of reality.  The way you bust out of the thinking trap is by asking what the facts are and challenging your beliefs about a situation until you find the truth.  This truth empowers you to act. 

My belief that “This sucks.  I’m stuck and powerless” was a combination of two thinking traps, black/white thinking and catastrophizing.  To challenge these traps, my therapist asked me for evidence that supported my claims.  I could prove my challenges were real.  I didn’t have evidence to support I was truly powerless.  For example, my therapist pointed out that if work was a challenge I could get a new role, interview with another company, or at a minimum quit my job.  Those were choices I could make.  That was power I had in this situation.  Once I shattered the illusion of being powerless, I reflected on other times I had been in tough situations, and how I had always found a way to get through them.  Now the evidence was telling me a different story.  I went from “This sucks.  I’m stuck and powerless.” to “this sucks, AND I always find a way to get through.”  I was now free from the thinking trap.  Does any of this ring true for you?

There are many applications for thinking traps.  Beyond using this tool to deal with stress at work or at home, we can also use this tool to solve work problems.  We can pressure test our thinking to make sure we didn’t get stuck in a thinking trap.  Work thinking traps often sound like, “Well, this is the way it MUST be done” or “This is the only decision that can be made” or “If we do X it will definitely lead a disaster.”  Similar to my situation, we can take those statements and begin breaking them down.  What is the logic that led us to that conclusion?  What is the evidence?  Sometimes, our assertion might be right.  Often, we’ve fooled ourselves into believing something and became trapped by it.

The challenge: How will you recognize the thought traps you get stuck in?

Bonus- Here are some videos about thinking traps

Have a jolly good day,

Andrew Embry

Therapy, Symptoms, and Root Causes (9-4-24)

Last week was about acknowleding things are heavy.  This week is about therapy, symptoms, and root causes. 

At this point in my therapy process, I’ve listed all the challenges I have going on in life.  From there, we talk about the negative impact this is having on me.  Being honest and vulnerable, I was participating in a lot of numbing/avoidance behaviors.  For me that looks like eating and drinking too much junk, doomscrolling, laying around vs moving my body, and binging on video games.  When I’m mentally healthy, I might partake in those behaviors in moderation and get joy from them.  During this time period, I was doing those things to escape instead of dealing with my issues.

It would have been easy to assume we should start going after those avoidance behaviors with things like, “Try to eat healthier,” but those were just the things on the surface.  We needed to find the root cause.  I had become so overwhelmed by things that I started telling myself a story that sounded like this, “All of this sucks.  It won’t ever get better.  I’m stuck and powerless.”  Have you ever felt this way?  After talking about this, I recognized this was the root of my problem.  I had convinced myself I was stuck and powerless, and that prevented me from dealing with these challenges.  I needed to address this feeling.

What does this have to do with anything?  Whether it’s therapy, marketing, or a business challenge, it’s EASY to see something on the surface and ASSUME that is what you need to solve for.  However, solving the surface level issue is often a temporary fix at best.  You can’t make meaningful progress, until you address the root of the issue.  In my case, the issue wasn’t necessarily that I was demonstrating avoiding behaviors .  The issue is that I started to believe I was stuck and powerless.  Addressing this and learning to let go of this has made all the difference.

The challenge: Will you address symptoms or root causes?

Have a jolly good day,